Voices

3 weeks ago by @gwenthered

Liner Notes

EP: Obsidian (My serious angry queer EP)
I don't really like giving explanations for my songs but I'm tagging it NSFW because I want to CONTENT WARNING this because the entire theme is suicide.

DEMO ARRIVED: Ok... I'm really super not happy with this one... but for a different reason than I was unhappy with Shadow Legion.

This one is a lot less polished and is going to go through A LOT of changes before the good version is released. I'm starting to really see my theme for this FAWM though. I've been experimenting with my voice. The last time I've recorded vocals was like 12 years ago, and since then I've not really sung aside from badly to music in the car. I'm trying to find my style, and really learning how to use my voice. I can tell that I fall apart once the rhythm and energy is gone. Even with the metronome running I just lose my groove. As a result I like the verses in this, but the chorus and the bridge are catastrophies that will be thoroughly revisited. But I wanna move onto more experimentations.

EDIT: Crap! I guess I accidentally left the double vocals on the first half of the choruses for the render. Sorry it sounds like ass.

EDIT EDIT: OK. How bad it sounds is pissing me off. I'm gonna re-record and re-render it.

EDIT EDIT EDIT: Ok. Re-uploaded it. Still hate the chorus but it's better than it was. I know what went wrong. I recorded the vocals with just the bass, and the guitars are clashing hard. Plus my performance is a little shaky too. I'll fix it for the good version.

#NuMetal

Lyrics

(Verse 1)
Back against the counter sitting on the kitchen floor
I think I've had it, I can't take any more
Looking at my reflection in the blade of the knife
This is the moment that marks the end of my life

(Verse 2)
Guided along by the voices in my head
No one will miss you, they all want you dead
Face it, you're sick, you're defective
Obey, follow our final directive

(Chorus)
Balancing on the edge of a knife
The thread of fate frays with the internal strife
Alone in the room, alone in the world
Sitting on the cold kitchen floor

(Verse 3)
Maybe if I were smarter, maybe if I were clever
Face it, you're a mess and destined to die alone
Make the move, end the pain forever
"Here lies trash" written on your headstone

(Verse 4)
But through the cascading voices, a thought stands out
A declaration cuts through with a shout
Impacts like the plates dropping from their shelves
If they want you dead, they can do it themselves

(Chorus)
Balancing on the edge of a knife
The thread of fate frays with the internal strife
Alone in the room, alone in the world
Sitting on the cold kitchen floor

(Bridge)
My body still shaking, my tears still falling
...
The voices are not my friends, they tell only lies
...
Redirect my pain into my rage
...
Yes.
I am sick
I am defective
But that's your problem, not mine.

(Chorus)
Balancing on the edge of a knife
The thread of fate frays with the internal strife
Alone in the room, alone in the world
Standing on the cold kitchen floor

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