This is how I feel. This is how I smile

2 weeks ago by @markg

This is how I feel. This is how I smile

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This is how I feel. This is how I smile.
C 2025 Mark Greenberg

You got a lotta nerve to smile at me that way. You think it’s some kinda joke?
You asked What’s new?—and when I told ya….

You just nod your head, look up at the sky
Shuffle your feet—won’t look me in the eye
There’s that faraway look like I’m not even here
Then you crack a smile—man, you’re so weird
Here I’m all broke up—I shouldn’t of even told ya
But when you asked, I thought I’d cry on your shoulder
I’m walking around with a soul full of sorrow
Don’t know if I can even make it to tomorrow
And then you ask What’s new? And I’m broke up inside
I never should of told you that my dog just died
Where’s your sympathy? Can’t you see how I’m feeling?
You give a dumbass smile—you’re no decent human being!

Hey, I’m so sorry—I apologize
For the smile I flashed and the look in my eyes
This is not the first time that I’ve been hassled
When I come across as a first-class asshole
My social skills are, let’s say, divergent
So many think I’m an uncaring person
People tell me sad news and I should sympathize
But they’re turned away by my far-away eyes
Then you tell me bad news and I seem unkind
But let me tell you what went through my mind
I had a dog, too. He was my best friend
And I loved him dearly to the very end
You won’t believe how much I cried
That awful day my dear dog died
But these days I remember our love together
And those memories make me feel better
So please forgive me for my response
To your sadness for your loss
Hey, maybe someday when you think of him
Instead of tears he’ll bring a grin
Sorry—sometimes I seem col outside
But inside I have my reason to smile

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